Friday, June 6, 2008

disclaimer: this post is a downer

now, i know that many of my readers aren't the fondest of hillary. i can understand that. but i miss her. or, i suppose, it's more that i miss what she represents. i know that the politically correct thing during the primaries, or any election, i guess, was to choose your candidate based on their issues. i tried to do that, and there were a few of hillary's positions on issues that i didn't necessarily agree with. but try as i might, i had a very hard time getting over the "gender thing." i think we can all admit that the media treated hillary like shit (pardon the language, but it's true). i mean, hillary nutcrackers? seriously? and the fact that if anybody had even come close to making a race joke on par with the women jokes that were made about hillary, there would have been outrage. i'm sorry to use this space to talk about something so controversial, but i read this (http://warner.blogs.nytimes.com/2008/06/05/woman-in-charge-women-who-charge/) and saw this (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g-IrhRSwF9U&eurl=http://www.salon.com/mwt/broadsheet/feature/2008/05/27/sexism_sells/) and i literally felt like i was going to throw up. chris matthews can go jump off a bridge because he's a dumbass and not one thing he says is even remotely intelligent.

staying on the gender theme, i've been thinking alot about my internship duties. my primary job is searching for news from East Africa that pertains to women, peace, and security. which basically means i spend all day reading articles about rape, domestic violence, girls being abducted to be sex slaves for the army, no women in power, and on and on and on. and here's something uplifting that comes up a lot: a huge percentage of the rapes and other forms of violence against women that occur in war-torn countries, expecially africa, are committed by the UN peacekeepers themselves. where the hell are these women supposed to go for help if the people behind this seemingly god-given institution, the people who are supposed to be doing the saving, are perpetrating the worst crimes themselves? sometimes i feel like, instead of posting the stories i find on the website, i should just write in huge bold letters, EVERTHING STILL SUCKS AND IT'S NOT GOING TO CHANGE AND IF YOU'RE A WOMAN YOU'RE SCREWED SO GOOD LUCK BECAUSE NOBODY CARES. it's very discouraging.

sorry for the downer post.

3 comments:

Nana said...

As I wrote (but somehow wasn't posted the other day) I'm lovin you newsey blogsite. It's great keeping up with each day's experiences. You're definately "beyond Cool"!
You are reading and hearing lots of pretty depressing things.....and as idealistic as you are, you'll learn that nothing is black & white.....there are lots of greys. Remember you are in this to make a difference and inch by inch it will happen. For every step forward you'll see two steps backward....but never get discouraged if you believe in what you are fighting for. Please try not to get cynical....nothing gets accomplished without hope.


Love and BIG HUGS
Nana

salemfreeek said...

wow ash....don't you remember our 2 hour talk last night where i took you off the priority worry list for at least 3 days....i know this world is crazy...people are crazy...and i know i'm prob the least person to tout hope because i'm such a pessimist, but wtf baby... the nightmare has always been out there, you and most people have just not been aware of it...and some of us actually hide on purpose...when it gets overwhelming, look for something simple and beautiful... and lose yourself in that feeling for just a moment or two...more of my dumb s&^! but the elements always bring me a sense of peace and belonging...anyway...that made me sad....i love you so much...hang in there...you are extaordinary ...

annabegins said...

yes ashley, i miss hillary too & we continue to be a backward society who not only does not value women but devalues them. i always say when i am reincarnated i am going to come back as a rich white man with... well never mind. Anyways, on the "bright side" the idiot son of an asshole ( also the name of a great song by nofx) days are numbered and the number of women graduates continue to surpass men. well i love you and love to see you so passionate-angst inspires change & creativity. just don't let it rule your life.